Posts Tagged ‘Mother Teresa’

A Tool in the Hands of God

February 17, 2010

Mother Teresa used to say “I’m just a tool in the hand of God.”  As true as this is, our understanding of what it means deepens with our spiritual maturity.  Young believers look at a completed work and think “Look at what God helped me do”.  With more years of experience the same believer says “God used me to do this” all the while thinking “He chose me because I was the most uniquely gifted for the job.”  In that thought is a tiny bit of pride that God’s choice to use them made them somehow superior to others who may also have been considered.  Many more years with the Lord makes the believer think “God chose me for this job although I was totally helpless to do it myself.  That way His power alone would carry me and there would be no doubt that this work was God’s doing.  To God be the glory!”

Mother Teresa and Doubt

February 9, 2010

Some months ago a lot of press time was given to Mother Teresa’s journal.  The big news was that she had doubts, sometimes doubting God’s love for her or that God heard her.  The articles centered on the doubt, as though Mother Teresa’s life was somehow in vain.  I wonder if all the doubt doesn’t just make her all the more precious.  It seems all the great saints of old had not only doubts, but real “dark night of the soul” experiences.  It seems that Faith doesn’t reach greatness without trial.  That Mother Teresa’s life seems to have ended before the “dark night” was over is something only God understands.

I remember the story of Job, and Satan’s taunt that Job would be unfaithful to God if he were allowed to suffer.  And Job did suffer, and Job had doubts, but Job remained faithful to God.  God rewarded him with a greater revelation of  Who God Is, as well as other blessings.  I wonder if Satan didn’t throw down a taunt about Mother Teresa.  “See how much she speaks of love and acts with love if You take away her sense of Your Presence.”  We all saw love spoken, and love written, and loving works done till the very end of her life.  Weren’t God and Mother Teresa vindicated before Satan?  And wasn’t her loving service of even greater value when it was given in the darkness?  We love best when we love as Jesus did, without receiving anything- even God’s encouragement- in return.  If her life were a test, surely God smiled at the end.